In all the chaos....

Sometimes I think that we let the world get to us. We let money, fame, and worldly things get in our way of the big picture. We let all the little things step in front of what a lot of us really want from our lives. How we live our lifes, how we treat others, and how we love others.

Last night I went on a date with my husband. We decided that we would like to go to Olive Garden. As we were sitting there waiting for our waiter we were talking about lots of different things. Steve is going to school and we were talking about jobs and we were talking about how we are going to be able to provide for this baby and how we could do the great many things we are supposed to be doing. Well our waiter walked up and little to my surprise Steve had worked with him once before. They sat and talked about many things. About their schooling and their lives in general. It hit me that even though they didn't work together long my husband had made an impression on this man and it was not a bad one either. I could tell that Steve had helped this man along somehow.

Well we went on our date and everything was wonderful. We get home and Steve looked at his phone. His boss had called. This week has been a very trying week for us. We didn't know how we would make it. How our bills would get paid or how we would support our baby. On Steve's birthday this week his boss called and asked him to go work with my dad. He did it. We thought maybe that was the last day. Last night I saw as Steve talked to his boss and the look on his face that said we are gonna make it out of this crazy mess spoke louder to me then him just saying it. As he got off the phone I knew that we would be ok. Not even a week into our mess and already we were out.

I know that his bosses heart was spoken to. I know that he was in tune with the spirit enough to put Steve back to work. Right when I thought we weren't going to make it and we pulled through. I know we had help. I know that because of our callings in the church and the other things we do we were helped by Heavenly Father.

I haven't beared my testimony since I was 12 years old. I would say things sometimes that would make people think that I stood stronger then I actually did. After my grandma passed away I didn't understand what was going on. Why God would do such a horrible thing to my family as to taking her away. I became bitter and not wanting to trust anyone. In recent years other stuff has happened that has made my heart not be so hardened. I know that by turning to God, he will help us in any way that we need help.

I know that we do not do everything that we should. We do not read our scriptures every night and we do not pray every night. These are things that we need to work on. To say I am giving my 100 percent would be a lie. I can do better and I strive to do better for the sake of my husband and our baby.

I also know that Heavenly Father is a living being who made us to be like him. He showed us the way and sometimes it may be hard to follow but its worth it to follow it. My favorite quote is "He didn't say it would be easy, he only said it would be worth it." I don't know who said this but I do know that it stands so true. Even though we have had trouble with finiances we still have made it through this tough time and I know it has to be from the help of Heavenly Father. I know that without him life is dark and it may seem like you are having more fun but it cases more heartache for those around you and in turn yourself. I know that by doing the things that we should we are blessed more wonderfully then we can even imagine. I know God has had his hands in the events of the past few days. I know that he has helped us to over come these things and get on to what we need to be doing and I am so greatful for that.

One last word and then I will be done. I have a brother who doesn't know what he wants out of life. I would love to sit down and talk to him and tell him how my life was effected by the aweful things I had done and how I KNOW that if you put your trust in God and let him lead your life you will end up in a far better place then where you left off. I find it hard to talk to this brother because I do not wish to offend him and I do not wish to make him resent me but it breaks my heart to see him act the way he does and even sometimes treat us the way he does. He means a lot to me and if there was one thing I would love to say to him it would be that everyone has a tough time and I know it may not be what you want out of life but trust me on this, there are a great many people who love you on this earth and in Heaven who wish to see you do the best you can. I know life throws curve balls and it may be hard to hit them but it isnt impossible. Having a little help from people you know and love makes you stronger and wiser.

Now for the final (for reals this time :)). I would like to bear my testimony. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is a true church and that Joseph Smith was a true prophet. I know that by following Heavenly Fathers plan for us you are blessed in many more ways then can be listed. I also know that the temple is a wonderful place to be and I cannot wait for the day when I can go there with my children for their many different reasons. I know that family was sent here to bless and to love us and that even when some have passed along they are still standing by cheering us on to the finish line. I also know that Jesus died so that we could be here and so that we could live with our father again and be forgiven of the many things that we have done wrong. I know that we have living prophets on this earth and that they help us on our way to living a better life. I also know that no matter what decisions you make in your life if you put Christ and Heavenly Father first everything else falls into place. I know I have some work to do on myself and I am striving to do better but I know that with the help of family, friends, and my Heavenly Father I can do this and become a better person. I know that the spirit is strong in me as I write this today and that I had to share it on here.