Growing Up

I was sitting around thinking the other day about when I was a kid. I remember going to the store with my parents and being so excited for the toys. I remember going to Home Dept or Lowes with my parents and walking around and not being excited to be there. It was so boring to look at the refrigators and such appliances or home improvement things.

I realized the other day as we walked around Lowes just looking around that I was excited to see such good deals on all those appliances. I finally had to drag myself and Steven away from all the appliances. I knew that if we did not leave we might have come home with a new dish washer or washer/dryer.

In those few moments I came to the realization of the fact that toys and the little things that used to make me so happy still make me a lil happy but I look forward to the day when we can get things to fix up the house.

I look forward to the day when we can get a new roof or when Steve finishes the bathroom. Its like yesterday when we bought the door. It was such an exciting moment for us. Who knew that at 22 years of age I would get so excited about having a new door.

As I think of the things that are coming up in our lives I am so excited for those but those moments are big moments. Its the little moments that I am finding myself so excited about. Finally having the door put in or getting grociers on sale. I have realized that I maybe I am growing up. Even though I wanted to be a kid for awhile, I am no longer a kid and I LOVE all the new things in my life. I cannot wait for everything else that is going to happen. Who knows what else I will realize in those years and moments. All I know is that for now, I know what I need to know and everything else is working its way to me. I will learn them all in time and I will understand things better.

Old House New Tricks

"BUZZ". "SILENCE". "CLANK, CLANK, CLANK". "SILENCE". "WHISP". Those are the sounds that filled my house yesterday evening. Our house is a 100 years old. We decided to do a lil fixing. We went to Home Dept to buy some molding for the door. However, once we got there we got looking at doors and found a door. So we bought the door and headed home.

Once we got home Steve started tearing out the old door to replace the new one. The frame was to small in the old door. So for hours Steven drilled and sawed away all the stuff we didnt need so that the new door would fit.

Now we have a beautiful new door :) I love how nice our house looks now. Who knew that changing the door would make our house look like it was worth more then it really is.

All that is needed now is for Steven to finish up the bathroom. :)

Leg Cramps

I write alot about the baby and stuff that Steven and I are up to. I don't write about the lil moments that mean alot.

I have been getting really bad leg cramps while I sleep lately. If I stretch it out after getting it I can usually get rid of it without that much pain.

Last night however, was very different. I stretched out my leg and it started hurting so bad. So I tried to stretch it out again and it would not stop hurting. I tried and tried to get rid of the pain but it wouldn't leave. Finally I sat up and started rubbing my leg and cried silently so that Steve could sleep. Next thing I knew he was sitting up with me asking if everything was ok. I told him it was just a leg cramp and it would be ok. I laid back down and he wrapped his arms around me and then helped me rub my leg to get rid of the pain. He was so worried about me. I tried to tell him I would be ok but he would not go back to sleep until he knew that my leg had stopped hurting. It meant so much that he was so worried about such a little thing.

We both knew that it would go away but knowing that he cares so much that even a little leg cramp that gets to me also gets to him is comforting. I don't like to worry him but last night it let me know that he wants me to be comfortable. It made me so happy to know that I have him laying next to me so that no matter what happens he is there to help. Even if I wake up with a leg cramp or even worse pain he is there to make sure I am comfortable.

I love my husband so much and I am so glad that I have him. He is a HUGE blessing in my life.

Wiggle time

Every night I lay in bed and feel this baby move around like crazy. It may get uncomfortable but I love feeling her move. She may be up in my ribs and she does kick hard but I love it. Feeling her move makes me so happy. It lets me know that she is growing and healthy.

She has the same wiggle time at night. She wiggles on and off all day long but about 10 is when she wiggles for an hour non-stop and I cant sleep. This morning I realized however, that she HATES when her daddy gets up and leaves. It became clear as my husband VERY quietly rolled out of bed and headed down the hallway to go to work. This lil girl started kicking and moving like there was no tomorrow. It amazed me that she was so upset that her daddy was leaving her.

With only 10 more weeks to go I am realizing with each passing day that this baby is going to be a daddy's girl. I love her but as soon as I put my hand on my belly she kicks it off. She does not want her mommy. She wants her daddy. She loves when he puts his hand on my stomach. He removes it and she starts rolling around and kicking me as though I did something to make him move.

I love this little girl more with each passing day. Even if she is a daddy's girl, I love it. Feeling her move, even when making me uncomfortable, is such a great blessing. I cannot believe that I am so close to having this baby and being able to hold her. Time is flying so quickly. In a few weeks I will not be writing about how much I love this feeling when shes moving but I will be talking about how much I love that she knows who I am and how much I love to cuddle with her.